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Highlights

Time: 00:15:29
Content Marketing Strategies Discussing effective strategies to enhance content marketing efforts.

Time: 00:25:17
Networking in the Digital Age Exploring modern tactics for building and expanding online networks.

Time: 00:35:40
Community Engagement Tips Tips on engaging with online communities for content creators.

Time: 00:45:52
TON Blockchain for Content Creation Understanding how TON blockchain can revolutionize content creation processes.

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Building Meaningful Relationships Online Exploring ways to foster lasting relationships in the digital landscape.

Key Takeaways

• Valuable insights on content marketing strategies.
• Tips for building and expanding networks online.
• The importance of community engagement in content creation.
• Utilizing TON blockchain for creating engaging content.
• Strategies to foster meaningful relationships in the digital realm.

Behind the Mic

Introduction

All right. It is 1104. Thank you for joining me today for the Christ is King Sunday Bible study. Today we are going to be studying the book of Timothy, the first letter of Paul to Timothy. And the second letter. These books or these letters are very important because they're directly talking about, you know, false prophets, and it's giving not only direction but some enlightenment on how we should be preaching the gospel and how we should be sharing it. So let's get right into it. First letter of Paul to Timothy. Salutation Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus, by the command of God our savior and of Christ Jesus our hope. To Timothy, my loyal child in the faith, grace, mercy and peace from God the Father in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Warning Against False Teachers

Warning against false teachers. I urge you, as I did when I was on my way to Macedonia, to remain in Ephesus so that you may instruct certain people not to teach any different doctrine and not to occupy themselves with myths and endless genealogies that promote speculations rather than the divine training that is known by faith. But the aim of such instruction is love that comes from a pure heart, a good conscience and sincere faith. Some people have deviated from these and turned to meaningless talk, desiring to be teachers of the law without understanding either what they are saying or the things about which they make assertions. So this is really important because I know we have a lot of false teachers in our midst, a lot of people who hide behind the word of God and maybe who may not even believe in what they're saying, but they have joined and wanted to be in the business of talking about God for monetary value or for any, you know, for any other reason.

Reflections on Truth and Change

But that's not just talking about the pure faith. So we know that the law is good if one uses it legitimately. This means understanding that the law is laid down not for the innocent, but for the lawless and disobedient, for the godless and sinful, for the unholy and profane, for those who kill their father or mother, for murderers, for sodomites, slave traders, liars, perjurers and whatever else is contrary to the sound teaching that confirms to the glorious gospel of the blessed God which he entrusted to me. Gratitude for mercy. I am grateful to Jesus Christ our Lord, who has strengthened me because he judged me faithful and appointed me to his service, even though I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor and a man of violence.

Receiving Mercy

But I received mercy because I had acted ignorantly in unbelief and the grace of our Lord overflowed for me with the faith and love that are in Jesus Christ. Now, one of the things that false teachers love to claim is they love to claim, oh, Jesus Christ, or the Holy Spirit has flooded me. And I now feel this. Now it's different, because when you really feel it, when Jesus has really touched your heart, you behave differently, you move differently. You cannot hold on to your prior sins and the way you were being, the bad way you were being before, and still claim to be touched by the spirit. Because, for example, my father is a false teacher. He has amassed over $1.6 million in donations for misleading people. He does not preach the gospel as it should be preached. He definitely twists and twists gospel and twists things to make things work out for him.

Understanding Change Through Christ

But the problem, why I say this is a problem is because, say, for my father, he still has secrets. He says that he's been touched by this, by the Holy Spirit, that he. He hears Jesus's, you know, voice and that he has been changed, right? But at the same, in the same breath, says, nobody can know that I have a secret daughter. Nobody can know of my past. Nobody can know the things that I've done in the past. And see, the thing that I truly believe is that when Jesus has touched your heart, when the Holy Spirit is in you can come to terms with your previous sin. You can absolutely acknowledge the wrongs that you have done and repent. Ask forgiveness for not hide away and those things in secret, pretend they don't exist and not repent and just keep doing them. That's wrong.

A Call to Authenticity

You cannot do that. So that's what he's saying here. He's saying that he was a blasphemer. He was a persecutor and a man of violence. But I received mercy because I acted ignorantly on belief. And the grace of our Lord overflowed with me. So he felt the Lord and changed. He didn't feel the Lord and then continued to blaspheme, didn't continue to be a man of violence. He's talking about how he did change, and there's proof of that. So that's something we should, you know, definitely pay attention to. So next, the saying. Let's see. The saying is sure and worthy of full acceptance that Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners of whom I am the foremost.

Importance of Acknowledgement

But for that very reason, I received mercy, so that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display the utmost patience, making me an example to those who would come to believe in him for eternal life. The point is we shouldn't turn, we should turn away from our sin, but we shouldn't turn away from the acknowledgement of it, because acknowledging it, like I said earlier, helps us to repent. But there are so many people in this world who see their sin, but they hold onto it. They don't let it go, they don't stop doing it. They continue. And this is a problem. Okay, continuing. But for that very reason I received mercy, so that in me, as the foremost, Jesus Christ might display the utmost patience, making me an example.

Instruction on Prayer

Yes. To those who would come and to believe in him for eternal life, to the king of the ages, immortal, invisible, the only God to be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen. I am giving you these instructions, Timothy, my child, in accordance with the prophecies made earlier about you, so that by following them you may fight the good fight, having faith and good conscience, by rejecting conscience. And certain persons have suffered shipwreck in the faith. Among them are Hymenaeus and Alexander, whom I have turned over to Satan so that they may not learn. So they may learn not to blaspheme. Instructions concerning prayer, first of all, then I urge the supplications, prayers, intercessions and thanksgiving should be made for everyone, for kings and all who are in high position, so that we may lead a quiet and peaceful life in all godliness and dignity.

Desiring Salvation for All

This is right and acceptable in the sight of God, our savior, who desires everyone to be saved and to come to the knowledge of truth. For there is one god, there is also one mediator between God and humankind, Jesus Christ himself human, who gave himself a ransom for all. So. So this also expands on the point that to live righteously is to acknowledge what our sins were and then to move forward with Christ, to acknowledge that there is one God and that he did calm down, make himself human, and gave himself as a ransom for all. Because if he did not do that, the majority of humanity would fall.

Addressing Human Experience

The problem is, we are sent down here. We are, we're souls. First of all, let's talk about that. We are souls having a human experience, immortal souls having a temporary, limited human experience. And with that experience, our bodies come preset with the generational trauma of our ancestors, right? And with that also comes temptation of the flesh. When God sent us down here, he knew we would sin. He is omniscient. He knows everything we're going to do. And the thing is, it's like him looking above and down at us and seeing all these possible pathways that we could ever possibly choose. And because we have free will.

The Challenge of Human Choices

He's hoping that we make the right choice. But the problem is that because we're human and we have a society and we have all these pressures and all these problems that are we're facing. There are some people who just give in to the generational trauma. They make bad decisions, they listen to the sin of their flesh, right? And then they wonder why their life is so bad. They wonder why life is so unfair. And the thing that we need to realize is that it's not that God is unfair, life is unfair. There are certain things that are going to happen in life that may hurt you or may not make sense or may make you make the wrong decisions.

Fighting Against Negative Forces

But we need to adhere to what we know is good, because where we are right now is, I won't say hell because earth is God's creation, but there are demons here. The devil is working very hard through low vibrational humans to hurt other people. So that's why, like, for example, if you come across, say, someone who's like, narcissistic, right, has NPD all that and they are just doing horrible things and you just don't understand why you're like, what is the reason? What is the reason? Why are you being so hateful? Why are you going around just hating on people, being a whole problem for everyone you meet?

Truth and Lies

You know, in my opinion, there's a good chance that person is influenced by something that's not quite so good. So continuing, this was attested at the right time for this. I was appointed a herald and an apostle. I am telling the truth. I am not lying. This is in there. A teacher of the gentiles in faith and truth. I desire then that in every place the men should pray, lifting up holy hands without anger or argument. Also that the women should dress themselves modestly and decently in suitable clothing, not with their hair braided or with gold, pearls or expensive clothes, but with good works, as is proper for women who profess reverence for God.

Guidance for Women

Let a woman learn in silence, with full submission. I permit no woman to teach or have authority over man, for she is to keep silent. For Adam was formed first, then Eve. And Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. Yet she will be saved through childbearing, provided they continue in faith and love and holiness with modesty. Three qualifications of bishops. The saying is sure, whoever aspires the office of bishop desires a noble task. Now, a bishop must be above reproach, married only once, temperable, sensible, respectable, hospitable, an apt teacher, not a drunkard, not violent, but gentle, not quarrelsome, and not a lover of money.

Business in God

Okay, this right here is what I am talking about. There are so many people in the business of God. There are so many people who know how to say the right things. They know what exactly, what tone, what verbiage, what language to use to make you emotional. But you see, they themselves don't believe. They themselves are in the business of God, for the love of money, for the donations, like I said earlier, my father, a false prophet. $1.6 million, you guys. $1.6 million.

Injustice in the Church

This man has accrued and has done nothing good with it, has only kept it for himself and desires to be at 2 million while he goes around professing forgiveness, professing, you know, goodness, and professing the fear of God when he has no fear of God himself. So I've taken it upon myself to start. I want to start talking about God with you guys. Whoever wants to listen, whoever has ears to hear and eyes to see, I want to really bring this up as it's meant to be talked about, as it's meant to be, so that you understand that if you are a true believer, your fear of God is very present.

Spiritual Integrity

That you should not be talking about God. If you don't believe, don't talk, don't ask for money. That I really, truly believe that when you talk about God like this, it should be like this in a space. No money, no donations, no personal effects like that. We came into this world with nothing. We're going to leave with nothing. Money is the distraction. It is wholly improper to be using God and Jesus himself and the holy spirit, all three, the trifecta, the Trinity. And then to tell people things that only that they want to hear because you think that you're going to get money from them. That is completely disrespectful.

Disgust with Greed

And I am disgusted. I am disgusted of my father doing this, making a business out of this, because he knew it was easy, because he knew he could get to these people, because he knew the believers would believe. If you speak like them, if you move like them. But it's all acting for him. It's not. That's not right. We cannot do that anyways. He must manage his own household well, keeping his children submissive and respectful in every way. Mine does not.

Servitude and Standards

For if someone does not know how to manage his own household, how can he take care of God's church? How exactly this. If your life is in shambles and you're not living according to the scripture. You're not living according to the gospel. You're not following God's will. His heart is not yours in the sense that you have not turned yourself to him, and your life does not reflect that. Now, I'm not saying you need to be perfect, but in my case, with my father and his family, he has kids who are whoring around, okay? He himself is doing that.

Consequences of Actions

He's pursuing money. You know, there are aspects in his life that are not reflecting this right here, and he knows that. But again, the love of money is blinding these people, and they're hiding behind God. Because when you hide behind God, you can pretend to be righteous. You can pretend, and that's crazy. That's crazy to me. How do you not think you're going to get found out eventually, right? How do you not think that at some point someone is really going to see that your words do not match your actions and your life does not reflect the good and godliness that you are trying to profess?

Responsibility of Faith

This is what I'm talking about. Okay? Continuing, he must not be a recent convert, or he may be puffed up with conceit and may fall into condemnation of the devil. Calling all of those people out says he must not be a recent convert. And in the example I'm speaking of, my father has gone through every religion. He's been a Buddhist, he's been all these things. And now I'm not saying that, like, you know, you can't experiment with those things if that's how, you know, you want to experience your life like that, but then to go and do all those things and pretend to be all those things, and then now you settle on being a God, a preacher for God.

Falling into Temptation

And then you don't really believe, you know, you're going to get led astray, and that's what's happening to him. So, moreover, he must be well thought of by outsiders so that he may not fall into disgrace and the snare of the devil. Right? Okay. Qualifications of deacons. Deacons, likewise, must be serious. Not double-tongued, not indulging in much wine, alcoholism, not greedy for money. And they must hold fast to the mystery of the faith with a clear conscience.

The Role of Deacons

None of these things a false preacher can do. All they can do is lie. And they're very good at it. They're very good at lying. And that's very sad because they're misleading people. And what's really funny in my case is that I literally just declared that I am his daughter, you know, and people literally say, no, you're lying. I'm like his DNA, like Sid. Then if they prove themselves blameless, let them serve as deacons. Women likewise, must be serious.

Women in Ministry

Not slanderers, but temperate, faithful in all things. Let deacons be married only once, no divorce, and let them manage their children and their households. Well, I wanted to. I had to send a heart. Hi, Andy. Welcome. Welcome. Thank you guys so much for being here. All right, so let's continue. For those who serve as deacons gain a good standing for themselves and great boldness in the faith that is Jesus Christ.

Reflection on Religion

The mystery of our religion. I hope to come to you soon, but I am writing these instructions to you so that if I am delayed, you may know how one ought to behave in the household of God, which is the church of the living God, the pillar and bulwark of the truth. Without any doubt, the mystery of our religion is great. He was revealed in flesh, vindicated in spirit, seen by angels, proclaimed among gentiles, believed in throughout the world, taken up glory over time.

The Road Ahead

This has been forgotten. People have tried to, you know, take loopholes around things, tried to be like, oh, it doesn't matter. I could be any which way I want. But know this, that in the end, everything is always revealed. You may have a long time before the truth is revealed, but in the end, it always does. So that's why I always say, even if it hurts or even if you may possibly lose somebody in your life, you must be an honest person.

Closing Thoughts

Okay? Because it will. So, 1 second, I'm going to go ahead and read some psalms I want while you guys are here. I'd like to pray for you. I like to pray for the world. I'd like to pray for everything that's going on right now. So for right now, I'm going to start with psalm, thanks to the Lord, for he is good. For his steadfast love endures forever and ever. Let the redeemed of the Lord say so. Those he redeemed from trouble and gathered in from the lands, from the east and from the west, from the north and from the south.

Celebrating Deliverance

Some wandered in desert wastes, finding no way to an inhabited town. Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted within them. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He led them by a straight way until they reached an inhabited town. Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind, for he satisfies the thirsty and the hungry. He fills with good things.

The Importance of Gratitude

Some sat in darkness and in gloom, prisoners in misery and in irons, for they had rebelled against the words of God and spurned the council of the most high. Their hearts were bowed down with hard labor. They fell down with no one to help. Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He brought them out of darkness and gloom and broke their bonds asunder. Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind, for he shatters the doors of bronze and cuts in two the bars of iron.

Deliverance from Affliction

Some were sick through their sinful ways, and because of their iniquities, endured affliction. They loathed any kind of food, and they drew near to the gates of death. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. He sent out his word and healed them and delivered them from destruction. Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind, and let them offer thanksgiving sacrifices, and let and tell of his deeds with songs of joy.

Thanksgiving for His Goodness

Some went down to the sea in ships, doing business on the mighty waters. They saw the deeds of the Lord, his wonderful works in the deep, for he commanded and raised the stormy wind which lifted up the waves of the sea. They mounted up to heaven. They went down to the depths, their courage melted away in their calamity. They reeled and staggered like drunkards and were at their wits end when they cried to the lord in their trouble. He brought them out from their distress.

A Testimony of Power

He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad because they had quieted house, and he brought them to their desired haven. Let them thank the lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind. Let them extol him in the congregation of the people and praise him in the assembly of elders. He turns rivers into a desert, springs of water into thirsty ground, a fruitful land into salty waste because of the wickedness of its inhabitants.

Transformation Through Faith

He turns a desert into pools of water, a parched land into springs of water. And there he lets the hungry live. And they established a town to live in. They sow fields and plant vineyards and get a fruitful yield. By his blessing they multiply greatly. And he does not let their cattle decrease when they are diminished and brought low through oppression, trouble and sorrow. He pours contempt on princes and makes them wander in tactless wastes.

The Worthy of the Righteous

But he raises up the needy out of distress and makes their families like flocks. The upright see it and are glad, and all the wickedness stops its mouth. Let those who are wise give heed to these things and consider the steadfast love of the Lord. Amen. I'm going to go ahead and share the space. 1 second. Please do share the space if you can. I'm going to go ahead and do that now.

Engaging in Community

Okay. I just shared it with some friends who are also. They also are Christians and, you know. Hi. Welcome, everybody. Okay, so we just read the Thanksgiving for deliverance for many troubles. Please. I want this to be an open space as well. I know this is a prayer space as well. And I want you guys to feel comfortable coming up to the mic if you want to talk about your experience with Christ, if you want. If you need any prayers or whatever, just definitely this is interactive, so please don't be shy, but we will continue.

Reflections on Timothy

The one topic I was covering earlier was the book the letters to Timothy. We were talking about false prophets. We have a lot of those lately. The other thing I will touch on is my other favorite book of the Bible, which is revelation, because I feel like we are in revelation right now. I'm going to get to that right now, actually, because I do like reading revelations. It's very nice. I mean, it's not. It's kind of scary. If you read revelations, it's a little bit scary.

Reality of Our Times

Old stuff is going to happen, but it feels very relevant, I'd say now in this time when everything feels like it's falling apart, it's very long. But I wanted. I wanted to read to you one of the favorite. My favorite parts of that. Okay. So from revelation 22, this is the river of life. I like this part. And then the epilogue and benediction, it just. It just really hits hard. So let's actually start.

The Final Battle

I want to start at Satan's doom because he's gonna. He's always gonna lose in the end. Okay. Yeah. Okay. So good news. When the thousand years are ended, Satan will be released from his prison and will come out to deceive the nations at the four corners of the earth. Gog. And in order to gather them for battle, they are as numerous as the sands of the sea. They march up over the breath of the breadth can't talk of the earth.

The Ultimate Victory

And surrounded by the camp of the saints and the beloved city, a fire came down from heaven and consumed them. And the devil who had deceived them was thrown into the lake of fire and sulfur where the beast and the false prophet were. And they will be tormented day and night forever and ever. This is also why I believe that, you know, you were seeing a lot of demonic symbology in our world right now. And that. Don't discount that.

Understanding Evil

Don't think that's a coincidence. There are no coincidences. There are actual people afflicted by evil who are doing evil things and trying to normalize that. Because here's. Here's also the other thing we have to remember is that there are a lot of people in this world who love their sin. They don't feel like they can be away from it. They feel all they have made, their personality, their sin, and they walk in it. And instead of acknowledging, okay, we are sinners, we are flawed, right, we're imperfect, but there's hope.

Healing and Transformation

They don't see the hope part. They don't see the changing part. They don't see that there is hope to change. They don't want to let go of what they know. Because, you know, for humans, the devil we know is better than the unknown that we don't. So for a lot of people, they stay where they are and they go, my life sucks. Everything sucks. Oh, I'm just so unlucky, or, this is so bad, or, you know, no one cares, and blah, blah.

The Call for Change

And it's like, no, you want to change the world, start with yourself. And we can do that. So the dead are judged. Then I saw a great white throne, and one who sat on it, the earth and the heaven fled from his presence, and no place was found for them. And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne. And the books were opened. Also another book was opened, the book of life.

The Books of Life

This is real. And the dead were judged according to their works as recorded in the books. This is what were talking about before in Timothy. Humans are always going to sin. There is nothing you can do in the eyes of God. There is no work you can do to get into heaven if you are living a sinful life and you haven't repented. So you will be judged by those works.

The Need for Repentance

And because we won't, by our works alone, we won't make it. That's why we need Jesus, because he lived a sinless life. He lived a perfect life, and he took all the sin on us. And he said, all you need to do is walk with me. Pick up your cross, carry it with me. Have the strength to change yourself. Have the strength to walk forward and do the right thing. And what happens is, unfortunately, in this world, good people are punished.

The Cost of Goodness

Notice how a lot of the CEO's and people like that up in the top, all the people at the top who have all this money and stuff, they're got there because they stepped on people. For the most part. They are, they aren't up there and being successful because they were just really good people. You know, that we have to look at that. That when you are positive, like, say, for example here on x, when you're a positive person and you're not doing drama and you're not gossiping and you're not shitposting and you're not, you know, doing all those things, you're, you get buried by the algorithm of sorts.

Positivity in Society

You know, like people almost, I would say, find goodness and positivity boring. They don't want that. They get annoyed by that even. I know. There was even a time in the past where I used to be annoyed by endless positivity, just like, I'm having a bad day. Just be happy. Well, it's hard to just be happy when your world is falling apart, right? So I guess it's ingrained in us too, to kind of overlook that goodness, because what happens, our brain is wired.

The Nature of Humanity

Okay, hold on 1 second. Okay, sorry about that. We had a little bit technical difficulties. We are back right now. Okay, so like I was saying, humans are hardwired to. Our brains are hardwired to see the bad. First we hyper focus on the bad. So that's why it hurts so much.

The Impact of Negative Feedback

Whenever somebody says that you're a bad person or, you know, you suck or your art sucks or whatever, we take that to heart because our brain is hyper focusing on those things to keep us protected. So whenever you see something, like I said, hyper positivity, sometimes that's overlooked or buried. And people are like, yeah, yeah, whatever, I don't care. So, you know, we have that, okay, so. And the sea gave up the dead that were in it, death and Hades gave up the dead that were in them. And all were judged according to what they had done. Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. This is the second death, the lake of fire. And anyone whose name was not found written in the book of life was thrown into the lake of fire, new heaven and new earth.

New Beginnings and Heavenly Visions

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, see, the home of God is among mortals. He will dwell with them, and he will. They will be his peoples, and God himself will be with them. And he will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more. Mourning and crying and pain will be no more. For the first things have passed away. And the one who was seated on the throne said, see, I am making all things new.

The Importance of Writing Down Revelations

Also, he said, write this, for the new words are trustworthy and true. Then he said to me, it is done. I am the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty, I will give water as a gift from the spring of the water of life. Those who conquer will inherit these things, and I will be their God, and they will be my children. But as for the cowardly, the faithless and the polluted, the murderers, the fornicators, the sorcerers, the idolaters, and all the liars, their place will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death.

Media Manipulation and Emotional Responses

Now, my hope with these spaces is I do not want to sensationalize anything. We already have mainstream media making us scared and making us lying to us every day about everything. I myself have had to fight the urge to be angry about things and outraged about certain things and realize, remember, social media, that's the point. They want to elicit emotion, so they get engagement. And in the case of my father, who is a false prophet, I'm trying very hard to do the opposite of what he's doing. Actually, it's not really trying. It's very easy to do the opposite of that. But what he does, too, is he copies mainstream media and he post photos and scary things to get people outraged and upset. And that's not what we need to be doing right now.

Perspective on Life and God's Presence

Everyone listening to this, you need to know that you are living the world's most glorious VR game called life. You are an immortal soul having a temporary human experience. And even though you cannot feel God, like, right, like as you would a person next to you all the time, because there are, sometimes you can't. Sometimes you can really feel his presence. You feel the Holy Spirit inside you, and then sometimes you feel like he's very distant. But the thing you need to understand is he is everywhere. He is seeing and experiencing your life through your eyes, too. So anytime that you have had somebody be mean to you or cruel, you know, or you, someone has done wrong by you, like, I'm talking real dirty, like something where you're like, I want to get revenge. Don't seek revenge. God sees it.

Understanding Divine Timing

But also remember, he's watching everybody else too. Think about this. The sims game, right? Imagine you have the sims game going and you have a whole bunch of characters that you're messing with, right? Isn't there a time that you say are making your sims do stuff or your sims are doing stuff, and then all of a sudden your one sim is going to go do something that's going to get them in trouble or they're going to start a fire, right. Something bad is going to happen. And because you are the player, right, you're seeing this from an aerial view. You're literally looking down on all your sims, right? And you get to see what they're thinking. You get to see where they want to go, their wants, desires, their actual needs, right? You get to. To play that and you get to decide.

God's Oversight and Human Revenge

Now, I'm not saying God's doing that in the sense of like, he's making you do stuff, but he can see the tracks and the possibilities of every single person on this planet. So when something goes wrong by, like, someone does something wrong to you, trust that he will take up revenge for you. But it's not going to happen immediately. And let me tell you, it is not going to satisfy your ego. It's just not. Because if you take revenge for yourself, you are almost always going to mess it up. You're almost always going to create a bigger problem. And I know it doesn't feel good to wait. It doesn't feel good sometimes to trust his timing because you're like, wow, you're so slow, God. Like, please, like, why are you letting them get away with this?

The Nature of Divine Justice

Why are you letting this person who hurt me so bad, who cheated me or who lied to me, stole from me, lied on me, is going around now lying and hurting me and trying to destroy me. Why are you letting that persist? And it's because there is timing, because God is also slow to punish you and me. I have sinned greatly in my life and he hasn't punished me right away. And there are things I should have been punished for, but I want. I wasn't yet, but I got. But I'm saying this because I had to answer for everything eventually. Everyone does. So in that I take solace, because I know that even evil people who are doing things to me, they'll get it.

The Veil of Forgetting and God's Presence

They'll run into trouble all on their own. And in this part here, when God says he will wipe every tear from their eyes, there is this thing called the veil of forgetting. I know it's in the more spiritual communities that they talk about this, but that's the label for it. It's this, it's the veil of forgetting. And what's supposed to happen is when you pass away and you see God because everyone, regardless of what you believe, even atheists, will see God because whatever we have going on earth is not the same laws and stuff that's going on in heaven. So when you die and you see God and let's say you get into heaven, okay, and you're done with your earthly life, you will go through that.

Transformation and Judgement After Death

He will wipe the tear away from your eye and you will forget who you were, you will forget your friends, you will forget everything on this planet. It will be like as if it didn't even happen. And that's, that is true. And that's what he, that's what happens. Let's continue. So the vision of New Jerusalem, so this is like new heaven. So this is what they say is coming to. Then one of the seven angels who had the seven bowls of the seven last plagues, notice the symbology. Seven, seven. Seven is God's number, came and said to me, come, I will show you the bride, the wife of the lamb. And in the spirit he carried me away to a great high mountain and showed me the holy city of Jerusalem coming down out of heaven from God.

The Glory of New Jerusalem

It has the glory of God and a radiance like a very rare jewel like Jasper, clear as crystal. It has great high wall with twelve gates. And at the gates twelve angels. And on the angels are inscribed the names of the twelve tribes. Again, look at the numerology here. Twelve, 1212, seven. They're all, everything has a point even if we don't understand it. Anyways, the names of the twelve tribes of Israel or Israelites on the three gates. On the north three gates, on the south three gates. And on the west three gates. Again, three, three. And the wall of the city has twelve foundations and on them are the twelve names of the twelve apostles of the land.

The Dimensions of New Jerusalem

The angel who talked to me had a measuring rod of gold to measure the city and its gates and walls. The city lies four square, its length the same as its width. And he measured the city with his rod, 1500 miles. Its length and width and height are equal. He also measured its wall, 100 444 cubits by human measurement which the angel was using. The wall is built of Jasper. While the citys pure gold, clear as glass. The foundations of the wall of the city are adorned with every jewel. The first was Jasper. Second sapphire. The third agate. The fourth, Emerald, the fifth, onyx, the 6th, Cornelian, the 7th, Chrysolite and the 8th, Beryl, the 9th, Topaz, the 10th, cryo praise and 11th, jaffs synth, the 12th, amethyst.

Treasures of the New City

And the twelve gates are twelve pearls. And each of the gates is a single pearl. And the street of the city is pure gold, transparent as glass. Can you imagine how beautiful this is? It's absolutely amazing. I saw no temple in the city, for its temple is the Lord God, the Almighty, and the lamb. And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God is its light. So what they're saying here is that Jesus Christ himself is the light. So when you're in heaven, it's bright, but all the time, because he's bright.

Eternal Illumination in Heaven

And the glory, for the glory of God is its light, and its lamp is the lamp. The nations will walk by its light, and the kings of earth will bring their glory into it. The gates will never be shut by day, and there will be no night there. People will bring into it the glory and the honor of the nations, but nothing unclean will enter it, nor anyone who practice abominations or falsehood. But only those who are written in the lamb's book of life.

Designed for the Righteous

Now, I want to mention that this last part. But nothing unclean will enter it, nor anyone who practices abomination or falsehood. I have heard from a lot of people in my lifetime that when they. I say that they cling to their sin is that they get mad at Jesus because they're like, well, what an unfair God, that he won't accept me as I am. He won't let me into heaven if I'm like, you know, sinning or doing all these things. And they. What I'm. What I'm hearing when I hear that is they have a problem with rules, is they go, I want to sin how I want to sin, and I want you to accept it.

The Misunderstanding of Divine Justice

And if you don't accept it, then you're bad. And that is not the case. God has rules for a reason, okay? You have to be clean when you come in. He's not going to let devils or demons into heaven. That's just not going to happen. But there are these people who I believe are influenced by these negative forces, and then they just. They just don't see. Just like how he says. Some people have eyes and cannot see ears and cannot hear. Their hearts are hardened against the truth. They won't change. But God is giving them the opportunity to repent.

The Opportunity for Repentance

And some people will go to their grave never repenting, believing fully that their sin is proper, their sin is okay. And how dare a God be so unfair to not approve of their sin? Well, that's the thing. You come to God as you are, fine, you're a sinner, great. Go to God. And if you truly give it a chance, give him a chance and let him change you. Let him into your heart. And if there's anything that needs to be cleaned up or fixed, he will fix it. You guys will fix it together. But there are some people who don't even want to do that.

The Influence of False Beliefs

So what boggles my mind is there are people who believe in these false gods, right? They have the, you know, mythology. They have all these things going on. They believe that's correct, but yet they won't take God seriously. So they say there's no God. But our gods are real. Our idols are real, but not God. That doesn't make sense. You're literally living in his creation. You are his creation. The proof. You are in the proof.

Hope in Difficult Times

This is what I want people to know. You are living, believing in God's proof. Right now, there is hope. No matter what you're going through, even if your life is falling apart, God will not let you fall. You may go down to the depths of despair. Right now, I'm in some despair. I need a job, man. I need. I need to get, you know, I need stuff to help me live my life here, my human life here. And I'm not necessarily praying for money. I'm praying for a way through.

Trusting God's Provision

And I ask God, however you see that way fit, you make it for me, I'll follow you. In my life, I've been through hell. I was birthed to a mother who didn't want me, not even one bitch. She saw me as trash because she hated my father and because I was the closest thing to being him, because I'm 50% him, 50% her. I was trash. I was garbage. I was something that could be fucked with. I was someone that she thought I could just mess with.

Experiences of Abuse and Deliverance

I could just hurt her because she felt like doing it right. I was trapped. I was medically abused. She tried to kill me. Her hands were around my throat, trying to end my life. And when I say, listen to me when I say this, in that moment, I remember I fled from her. I went into my room, and I heard the voice of God. And you wonder, what does the voice of God sound like? It's not some big, booming male voice. It's your voice. He can come into your heart and into your mind, and it sounds like you think it sounds like you.

Listening to Divine Guidance

It's not going to sound unfamiliar because that would be scary, wouldn't it? That'd be bordering mental illness, right? So, no, that's not. That's not it. But in my story, I heard the voice of God tell me, get your things and get out. Get out. And I was terrified. She was banging on my door, trying to kill me. And I was crying. I was like, what is going on? Imagine how terrifying that is. The person who you love so much has now just revealed themselves to be someone who hates you.

Acting on God's Command

And you go, what am I supposed to do? But I listened to the voice. I listened to him. He said, get your things and get out. So I did. I grabbed my. Whatever I could. I grabbed some clothes. I grabbed my toothbrush. I grabbed my essentials. And as soon as she got out of the way, somewhere else in the room or not the room, but somewhere else in the house, I made my escape. I grabbed my things. I got my phone. I got my stuff. And it was. This was at midnight, man.

Steps Towards Freedom

This was like 1150 midnight, right? I'm walking out into the darkness, y'all. This is not even a metaphor. This is what really happened to me. I caught my little backpack. I walked out into the darkness, knowing now being comfortable that homelessness is much better than being with a woman who is trying to kill me, who is literally trying to end my life because I'm finding out secrets. So I did. I walked out into the darkness. And the whole time I was praying.

A Personal Relationship with God

Now, when you hear praying, I wasn't like, hands folded, like, oh, dear lord, blah, blah. No, no. When you have a relationship with Christ, you're just talking to. It's like talking to another person. It's like I'm talking to you guys right now. It's not some mystical, magical thing. It is literally a relationship. And he wants to have a relationship with everybody. So, anyways, continuing on my story, I was talking to him, going, I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm walking out into the darkness, man.

Divine Guidance in Times of Need

Everyone's asleep. What am I supposed to. Where am I supposed to go? And I felt his guidance in me. I felt my guidance, his guidance through me. And I was able to connect with a friend who was able to help me. Me. They gave me a room to sleep in. They gave me a shower. You know, they harbored me while my mother was trying to harass me and trying to find me. So continuing my story, it was then hell on earth, because I figured out what she had done to me.

The Cruelty of Abuse

So now, if you're asking why would she do this? What is going on now? Little spark notes of what I. What I went through is I was born to a Munchausens by proxy mother. So what happens is, people with Munchausens by proxy, they get a positive interaction, a positive emotion, from hurting somebody else or for making themselves sick. So if you have munchausens, you will purposefully make yourself sick so you can go to the doctor and be taken care of. It is the act of having others fuss over you and care for you that gives those people supply.

Understanding Munchausen's by Proxy

Now, there are a ton of people, either knowingly diagnosed or undiagnosed, walking around doing this. In my case, I had the by proxy part. So my mother was Munchausens by proxy, which means she got off on hurting me. So she. Because her mother was so strict to her and said, you're a bad parent. You're shit. You can't do anything. You can't even take care of a kid, right? She was desperate to prove that she could. So she started to make me sick.

Cycle of Abuse

She started to always report to the family, my daughter is so sick, blah, blah, right? And then she would make me, quote unquote, better. Oh, look, I've healed her, right? So this cycle would continue for the entire time she had me, which was over 17 years. This woman, unfortunately, had a medical background. She was what she called. I don't even believe she was a nurse, because I don't believe a thing she says. But she said she's a nurse, and she said she worked in the medical field.

Manipulation and Abuse

That's sad for me, because she had at least enough knowledge to manipulate the doctors so she would walk them to diagnoses that I didn't have so that they would formally put that on paper, right? We're there again. A lot of people like this. There are a lot of people like this in the world. And you have maybe even come across this person. Who knows? But my point is this. I was living in hell with her. And there was a moment where I asked God, why? Why are we doing this?

The Question of Suffering

Why are you making me go through this? I don't deserve this. It's not fair. And I know for a fact each and every single one of you listening has been through something. That you feel the same where you go. Why am I experiencing this? Lord, if you're real, why can't you save me? Why can't you make this stop? Right? And I even for a moment was like, maybe there's a point to this, right? Maybe there's a point. I have to go through this.

Resilience in the Face of Trials

I have to do this. I can. I can endure this, but I don't want to. And then I had to remember, this isn't heaven. Earth is a battlefield. You are an immortal soul having a human experience. And you know what? You may just be the one that your ancestors called to be here to change your family line, that you were born into a body with complications. Pre, you know, like you had. What's the word I'm looking for? Predetermined genetics, right?

Breaking Generational Cycles

You had pre. You had things that have run in your family, and now you're having to experience the problems that the people before you had to experience. Now, my hope, my giving hope to you today is that there is a way out. There is a way through. No matter what you're experiencing, no matter how vile or unfair, there is a lesson in everything. And before anyone gets mad at me, just know this. I have had the experience of being raped as a child.

Surviving Horrific Experiences

I have had the experience of being raped as a young person, a 20 year old in my twenties, okay? I survived all that. I did. I have had my mother try to kill me, and I have my mother try to get all of my family members, my aunt, my grandma, my grandpa, all of them. She had somehow said something to convince them that I was evil, to convince them that I deserved this punishment. And they covered for her, so she could just abuse me freely.

The Struggle for Truth and Recovery

And let me tell you, I ended up doing a double blind test when I got away from her, right? Got away from her, went to a new city, a new town, new doctor. And I said, give me a full evaluation, because at this point, she's telling doctors and telling people that I have autism, that I have all these BPD, I have all these cluster b personality disorders. And she's swearing up and down that this is true, right? I have all these problems, right?

The Importance of Accurate Diagnosis

I have Asperger's, all that stuff. I don't clearly listen. I don't. But I went to the doctor and I said, give me a full eval. I spent an entire year getting looked over, blood tests, mris, everything. And it came out that I had complex ptsd and anxiety, but nothing else tracked. And you want to know the wildest thing about this entire story is that I remember after I had my first baby, I thought, you know what? If I'm going to give my mother one more chance, because I love her so much.

The Final Attempt at Reconciliation

She doesn't love me. But I love her. So I'm going to say, if a baby can't change you, if my. If your first daughter having a child cannot make you be a better person or want to be a grandmother or get your shit together enough to be decent, then nothing will. So I put it to the test. I was strong. I put it to the test, and I gave her a call. And I said, mom, I've had a baby. Your first grandchild. What do you say?

Facing Rejection

She didn't say anything. So then I go and I tell her, fine. Let me. Let me confront you. Then I say, I have been to a new city. I've been to a new doctor. I got a test, and I wanted to see if everything that you said about me was true. And the results came up negative. I don't have anything of what you said. And I actually asked her, did you actually give medicine on purpose that you knew would hurt me?

The Weight of Conversation

And did you know the whole time that I never needed it, not once? The silence was unbearable. The heaviest. I could almost physically feel the heaviness of this conversation. And I waited. My back was sweaty. I was a mess. I was just completely shaking. Like I could not handle it, but I endured. And all she said after that was, yeah, sorry.

Reflections on the Past

This woman who I loved so much had taken me out of school after the fourth grade, plagiarized every single academic record I had just to falsify it to get me into college so people would stop asking questions. She weaponized school against me, poisoned me with medicine I didn't need to ruin my body, inflated my weight, ruined my thyroid. Like, was literally doing the most without being too blatant about it.

An Unfair Childhood

This woman ruined my prospects in my formative years. I didn't deserve this. I didn't even get to be a person. That's how unfair this is. And all I get at the end isn't, I'm sorry. As if she just bumped me in the hallway. Now, to anybody else, you would be seeing red, I guarantee you, because I did. I never threatened this woman back, but believe you me, I cried my eyes out until I physically couldn't bear myself.

Turning Away from Faith

And at a certain point, I turned away from God. And I said, God, you. You didn't save me. Why didn't you help me? Why did you make me endure all of this crap? For what? And I know again, going back, each and every one of you, listening to this right now, you have been through something where you feel the same, where you have felt this, where you have gone. Why the fuck do I have to do this? Why can't you just snap your fingers and fix it?

Facing Emotional Struggles

Why can't you? Damn these people who are doing wrong, why are they rewarded with peace? Why are they getting to go free? Right? All of these emotions you're feeling, you're thinking, why, why, if you're so all-powerful, if you can see why are you not helping me? And I had to go years crying, alcoholism, abusing substances, doing all these things because I didn't understand why.

Understanding Loneliness

And then finally it hit me like a ton of bricks when I was going through this. I didn't have anybody to talk to. There was no YouTube at that time. YouTube was new. People were still going Rar XD and doing dumb shit. There was no. It wasn't like it was today, where we have people who are doing mental health, practically free therapy, therapists on Instagram giving away tips for free.

The Absence of Support

I don't even have to pay for therapy. I just need to watch it long enough. Honestly, at this point. But I didn't have that back then. There was nobody telling me that it's not normal for your parents to all gang up on you and say that you're trash and you're a piece of shit and you're a loser who's never going to go anywhere. That's not normal. Parents are not supposed to do that.

Understanding Emotional Abuse

Your family's not supposed to delight in giving you gastric disorders because they have taunted you incessantly and insulted every part of your body to the point where they say you're. You're practically a waste of space for existing. That was my life. I lived that I had to. I had to sit there and look at the people I loved so much, gawk at me and laugh at me and taunt me like a hater on x.

Realizations About Self-Worth

Just completely trashed me for no reason, just because they could. And so I finally threw myself back into God and I said, I am not even a person. Because I'm not a person. You look me up right now on Google, you won't find anything. I have no education. I don't exist, okay? All that there is on the Internet about me is what's on my social media as of the last ten years.

Finding Hope and Purpose

But I don't exist anywhere else. And so I'm here to say that if I can survive something like that, I believe you can survive whatever you're going through. And so many false teachers and prophets right now are talking about things and making you scared to live and making you scared of everything and I'm not here to do that. I'm here to show you that you have hope.

The Role of Experience

Because what I found through my experiences, what I discovered is that maybe I went through this so I could be that person for everybody. I can be the person to stand up and say, look at these narcissists. I have nothing to lose. Like I said, I'm not even a fucking person, dude. I'm not. I'm. I don't have a job to lose.

Defying Power Structures

I don't have anything in the past keeping me. There's no one paying me. There's nothing. I can say that I am like, oh, shit, I can't say that because then I'm going to get in trouble. No one can touch me. None of that. I can say my truth. I can speak on it. I can call people out. I can call the truth out when I see it. I can call out bad things when I see it.

Dedication to Understanding

And so now what I'm doing is I've dedicated my life now to understanding narcissists. Because what. What my experience has made me is now an expert. I am a licensed expert by experience, of malignant Covid-19 narcissism. And anything that you find is unsatisfactory in your life today can absolutely be traced back to your childhood.

Blame on Inadequate Guardians

And I promise you, it is probably whoever raised you is probably their fault. Because here's the problem. Where we are, we're humans being raised by broken humans. People who are emotionally immature, they cannot handle themselves. So instead of handling themselves, they take everything and they project it on you.

The Cycle of Narcissism

So narcissists, what they love to do is they love to. If they feel like they're inadequate, then they say you're inadequate. Because what happens is they have enough sense to see that you have a light in you. They can see the potential in you a mile away.

Recognizing Potential

Everyone listening right now, you have the ultimate potential to be the absolute best version of yourself, whatever that looks like. You have the ability to live a peaceful, happy, successful life into which you can get and obtain anything you want. You can have it. You can. It's there.

Childhood Impact

But the problem is that maybe you were around people. Maybe a mother, a father, any kind of family member, even a friend, close family friend, whoever. Whoever was around you in your formative years. You have to be careful because children are so susceptible to anything.

The Harmful Words

If you tell a child, you'll never amount to anything. Your art sucks. And you keep telling them that, they're gonna believe that. So even if they have the potential to be amazing, if they practice, if you tell somebody enough, they suck, then they just go, I suck. Then that's it. End of story. Game over.

Perpetual Damaging Narratives

And so what I was being told when I was growing up, you suck. Your art is awful. There are so many people who draw better than you. You're not. You're a horrible singer. If you ever go on American Idol, you'd be a laughingstock. Like, that's the shit my mom used to say to me just all day, every day.

Self-Reflection and Struggles

You're a loser. You'll never amount to anything. You're a liar, you're a cheater. You're a bad person, bad kid. And I. I still loved her. And so my. My hope is that you understand that you're not here to live in heaven.

The Battlefield of Life

You guys, this isn't heaven. This is a battlefield. And your job, most likely, I don't know everyone's situation, but your job is like. You're like a secret agent from God, and you're here to heal the wounds of your ancestors through your family line.

Making Better Choices

You're here to make different decisions. So, for example, my mom was a bad mom. She literally did everything wrong you could think of, did not do anything right. My job is to make the opposite decisions and do better.

Generational Irony

Now I have two kids, so what's actually very ironic and hilarious is that she wanted me to be autistic so bad because she wanted there to be a permanent problem for her to have to be in charge of, to fix. Right? The Munchausen's by proxy part of her coming out. Ironically, I ended up having autistic kids.

The Challenges of Parenthood

And when I mean autistic, I'm saying severe. So, like, my son. My first son was born, and the doctor, around six weeks, was like, hey, better go get that checked out. Bam. Positive diagnosis. I'm like, shit, that sucks, right? Because it's hard. It's hard.

Facing New Struggles

It's not that I don't. You know, it's not that I'm, like, sad about it, but I'm like, wow, this is an added struggle that we now have to deal with. And it's. I cannot have normal expectations, which is fine, no problem. But dang.

Second Diagnosis

Bam. Second kid, very autistic. Almost. The doctor clocked it almost immediately, and she was like, dude, he's very autistic. You need to go get some. You know, get him checked out. Take him to the neurologist.

Addressing Concerns

Bam. Super autistic. Very low prospects for him. They were saying, don't be surprised if he doesn't walk. Don't be surprised if he never grows up, don't be surprised if he never talks to. I'm not equipped for this.

Embracing Equipping for Challenges

But actually, hold on. Wait. I am equipped for this. Why? Why am I equipped for this? I have had a lifetime of being forced to live like an autistic woman. That's what my mother did.

Utilizing Past Experiences

She forced me to go to therapy. I did not need autism therapy, but I have spent over 17 years having to read the books. And even though that didn't apply to me, right when I was reading, I was like, I don't think this is what is wrong with me.

Reflecting on Learning

I don't think this is wrong with me. I still had the opportunity to learn. So in an extremely fucked up way, I got an entire, like, lesson on autism. So now. Now I have my kids.

Preparedness in Parenthood

Now I have my kids who are the most autistic. And I don't feel unprepared anymore because I'm looking back and I go, oh, I remember that from when I was in therapy. Oh, I remember that. And I took them to do, you know, I took my kids to therapy, and we got some help now.

Life's Unpredictability

I still need, you know, like, respite and stuff, but like, for the most part, I didn't enter my motherhood being completely side or what is it? Blindsided, you know? Oh, and if you hear, that's my baby right now, he's coming in to say hi.

Training Through Hardships

But I haven't been blindsided by this. So in a. Like I said, in a very weird way, I got my training, even though my training hurt my feelings and it hurt me, what I went through wasn't for nothing. And again, like I said, I do believe even when things are messed up, there are things that are happening in our lives that are not coincidences.

Intentional Life Lessons

There are no coincidences. Everything is intentional. And if you are going through something in your life that you're like, it sucks. This sucks, and I hate this, and I don't want to do this anymore. And you find yourself blaming God.

Seeking Understanding

Before you go down that rabbit hole, ask yourself first, what is this trying to teach me? Because remember, in my opinion, I feel like we're in some big movie. Cause everything's kind of playing out like, okay, this season of earth, you know, what's. What's on board next?

Perception of Current Events

We got alien invasions. We got World War Three. It's kind of playing out like a movie if you really look at it. And there are ways we can survive this, but I'm telling you right now, you will not survive this if you believe the propaganda that's being told to you.

Resisting Propaganda

If somebody is telling you to hate somebody, especially somebody you've never met, but they're trying to sensationalize an event and say, you must hate this person, or you're not american, you must hate this person, or you're not a good person, that right there is a sign that you should not hate that person.

The Spirit of Love

God did not give us a spirit of hate. He did not give us a spirit of fear. Humans did that. And what's worse, when were talking about Timothy, the letters to Timothy, is that's what false teachers do they want to make you scared, and they want to have. They want to try to lead you with fear so that you stay with them and you keep giving them money.

Spreading Hope

And like I said earlier, I want to continue to do these spaces. I want to talk to you guys, but I want to give you hope. I want to show you that. Look, I personally have defied God. I have tried to go against him. I tried to live a life on my own terms.

Consequences of Defiance

And guess what happened? I freaking burned, man. I could not do it. It didn't work out. And I thought God was so unfair. But guess what? He literally is perfect. He knows. He sees what's wrong.

Understanding Divine Timing

He sees your pain, but sometimes he can't act right away because there's so many other cogs in motion. And again, this is why I talked about the game, the sims. When you're playing with multiple characters, right, don't you make some sims? Calm down.

Simulating Divine Interventions

Don't you say, okay, you go take a nap, or you go eat, or stop what you're doing. You're going to cause a fire. Go. Go do something else. Right? I got to go handle this person. Go. Go chill out and imagine that's what God's doing to us.

Messages of Stillness

He's telling us, okay, you need to be still. I know you're going through something right now, but I need you to be still. I need you to be patient. And from our point of view, we look, we feel abandoned. We feel like, how dare you?

Questioning Divine Rationales

If you're so all knowing and so like this, why. Why can't you just fix for me? Maybe it's not meant to be fixed right away. Maybe you do have to wait. Maybe if you take revenge on your own, it'll be bad, and you can't have that, right.

Avoiding Fear-mongering

So this is what I'm saying. Don't believe the people who are trying to make you afraid. God loves you, and he loves you how you are. And I say this because he loves everybody, and religion is really. Don't believe it, please.

Critiquing Institutional Religion

Religion is a farce. Religion is something that we made up because we needed. We needed a path forward. Right? Humans are silly, but the relationship and word of God, that is. That is what you need to follow.

Call for Peace Among Believers

Because nowhere does God say, go kill everybody based on your belief. Nowhere does he say, here, go be a. Go be a bastard. Because I want you to. No, no. He's telling us to love.

Preaching Love and Understanding

Love your enemies. Don't be like them. You don't let someone else's anger and hate make you. You angry and hateful. Don't let them change you. Don't be influenced like that. That's not.

Rejecting Toxicity

That's not the way to make things right. That's the way to feed your ego. Cause your ego wants destruction. Trust, trust me, trust me.

Confronting Past Trauma

When my mother confessed to what she did to me, man, I feel like crying right now. Cause I said I love you. All I did was love you. How. How could you do this to me? How could you hurt me like that?

Seeking Clarity

I thought, you can see that I'm sincere. All this time, I even said, how did you not see my sincerity? You told me I was crazy. I said, okay, if that's what you say, because I trusted you.

Understanding Past Relationships

You told me something was wrong with me. So I said, okay, let's go figure it out. I was of the heart to mend. I wanted to fix whatever you said was broken.

Unending Struggles

But then, now I see it's never gonna end. You're never gonna be satisfied. I'm. You're always going to try to make me a problem. You're always going to try to say, I'm crazy or I'm this or I'm that.

To be Free from Manipulation

And let me tell you guys, when somebody insults you and then you come to them and say, you've hurt my feelings, if their response is you're crazy, if their response is you're just so sensitive, that's not a good person to be around.

Recognizing Toxic Relationships

I don't care if that's your fucking family. That's a bad person. That is somebody who does not want a relationship with you. They do not want you to heal. They just want to hurt you.

Responses to Hurt

Because the appropriate response to something like that. If you've told. If you. Sorry. Told. If you told someone you've hurt my feelings, somebody who actually gives a shit about you will say, oh, my gosh, how do we fix this?

Defining Real Relationships

Right? Like, let's. Let's work on this together. I'm so. I'm sorry. That's. That's what real relationships sound like, I'm sorry. Let me. I did not mean that.

Acknowledging Mistakes

Let. I won't do that again. I'm sorry you took it that if someone in your life is not responding like that is not someone you need to freaking be around.

Inspiring Courage

Okay. All right. Also, please, guys, I know I have been on a rant. I just. I am feeling. I'm feeling it today. I am just so excited you guys are here. Don't be afraid to come to the mic.

Inviting Open Dialogue

I would love to answer any questions or talk to you, hear your story. This is very inclusive. Please, please come join me in just loving each other and loving Christ.

Reaffirming Optimism

Because like I said, there is hope. This world is going to go to shit real fast, and it already is. But that doesn't mean it's going to stay that way.

Understanding Revelations

That's why we're reading revelation right now, because you need to know it's going to be bad. It's going to be very bad, but it's not going to end. It's not going to end bad. It's going to be fine.

Hope for the Future

It's going to be fine. Okay. Okay. The river of life. Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as a crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the lamb through the middle of the street of the city.

Imagining Beauty

Oh, can you imagine how beautiful that is? My goodness. On either side of the river is the tree of life. Tree of life that. Oh, didn't we have some trouble with that in Genesis with its twelve kinds of fruit?

Reflections on Choices

Don't eat the fruit. Don't eat that fruit. Producing its fruit each month. And the leaves of the tree are for the healing of the nations. Nothing accursed will be found there anymore.

Hope for Redemption

Oh, thank God. No more naughty apples to eat. There we go. How wonderful. But the throne of God and of the land will be in it. And his servants will worship him.

Eternal Worship

They will see his face and his name will be on their foreheads. Oh, how fun. And there will be no more night. And they will need no light or of lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light and they will reign forever and ever.

Final Thoughts

I want to mention this because we already talked about it before.

Immortal Experience

Imagine being an eternal being, okay? You are an immortal soul having a human experience. We have day and night. We have. We have bad feelings and good feelings. Our soul. Wouldn't you get tired of just being immortal all the time? Right? Can you imagine living forever, nothing changing? Right? So this is as unbelievable as it sounds. The life you're living right now. Is your break from immortality. And it's. This is. I mean, I used to say it's a vacation from immortality, but I know some people would say this isn't a vacation. And this sucks down here. It's ghetto down here. Oh, my goodness. Like, I don't. Like, trust me, I have said more times in the past month that I don't want to be here. Like, I'm done. Like, I'm like, God, come collect me. I'm done. I fit.

Life's Struggles

I'm finished. I don't want to play this game anymore. But it's like being on a roller coaster, you know? Like, you're scared to be on the roller coaster. You get your courage to be on it. It starts going, and then you're in the middle of the roller coaster, and then somewhere through it, you're like, okay, I'm done. Like, I don't want to be on the ride anymore. But logically, think of the roller coaster. If you're in the middle of the ride, which we are right now, you can't get off. So there are people. Think about it. The people who are yelling at God, getting mad at him, saying, why can't you fix this? Why can't you stop this? He can't stop the roller coaster. You have to finish the ride just like. And also think about it. Like Jumanji. They couldn't just stop the game, right?

Endurance in Life

Imagine how great would it be in Jumanji if you could just destroy the board, the game board, and say, look, I'm done. There's too many monkeys in here. There's too many freaking lion in the other room. I'm done. I don't want to do this. This game sucks. No. In the movie, they had to play until the end. So we are here. Some of us chose to be here. Maybe some of us have forgotten. Whatever. The point is, we're all here together. We're on the same roller coaster ride. We can't get off. We can't. If you jump off, you're dead. Right? Some people fall off a roller coaster, you die. It's sad. Don't do that. All right, next. And he said to me, these words are trustworthy and true.

Divine Messages

For the Lord, the God has. Or, sorry, I misread. For the Lord, the God of the spirits of the prophets has sent his angels to show his servants what must soon take place. See? I am coming soon. Blessed is the one who keeps the words of the prophecy in this book, epilogue, and benediction. I, John, am the one who heard and saw these things. And when I heard and saw them, I fell down to worship at the feet of the angel who showed them to me. But he said, you must not do that. I am a fellow servant with you and your comrades, the prophets, and with those who keep the words of this book, worship God. So even the angels are saying, don't worship me, and it's impossible. Okay.

Visions of the Divine

Let me just tell you, if you see a biblically accurate Angela, you're gonna freak the fuck out. Because it's gonna be reminiscent of an alien, right? It's gonna be crazy looking. It's gonna be like, even if they show up in human form, you're like, what? What is going on? But they insist worship God, not me. Kinda hard to do, but we have to do it anyways. He said to me, do not seal up the words of the prophecy in or of this book for the time is near. Let the evil doer still do evil, and the filthy still be filthy. And the righteous still do right. And the holy still be holy. Holy. Now, this is the part where a lot of people say, that's unfair.

Understanding Evil

Let the evil still do evil. Why? Why are we letting evil still do evil? That is terrible. Why are we doing this? Why are we allowing this? Right? Why are we allowing them to do this? It's because you have to let them build. Let them. Sorry. Let them dig their own graves. Okay? Because that's the thing. You have to understand. You should not turn to evil. Don't be evil because other people are being evil. Because here's the trick. This is. This is the fool selfishness, is that we will see people who are evil be celebrated and recognized. Right? They go and be famous and they make all this money, and then it's hard not to look at that and go, well, dang.

Consequences of Fame

Well, shit, you guys are, like, doing shitty things, but you're getting lots of money. And you think. You think for a second, oh, my goodness, if that could just be me, if I could just have all that money and that fame and that accolades and all of those things, then my goodness, my life would be set. But you don't know what you're asking for. Why would you want to be a part of a corrupt like Hollywood? Like, why would you want to be part of that? What would they make you do? Because then here's the thing. You're just asking for different problems. So, sure, let's say you become famous and make a million dollars because you joined their little club. What now?

Challenges of Fame

What will they make you do? What morals will they make you go against to keep that money? Could you say no to. To it? At that point, after achieving what you've always dreamed of? Let's say it's not what you thought. Are you going to back away and be honest and say, I'm not about this? Sorry, I don't. I didn't know what I was asking for. Or are you going to go? Yeah, I'm. Okay, fine. I'll go against everything I know to be right, and I'll do what you want because I want that money. I myself have turned down $8 million, you guys. I have half. Do you know how hard that is? Like, that's life changing money.

Realizations and Consequences

Some people will call me stupid for that. Some people will say, how could you do that? Why would you do that? Oh, my God. That's so stupid. But you don't understand. There were strings attached. My life would have been a lot worse. And I saw that. I saw that from 2 miles away, not just one, 2 miles away. And I said, no. And that's really hard, you guys. That's really hard. Okay, let's keep going. We're almost done. Thank you for being here. All right. See, I am coming soon. My reward is with me to repay.

Hope and Faith

According to everyone's work, I am the alpha and the omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end. Blessed are those who wash their robes so that they will have the right to the tree of life and may enter the city. By the gates are the dogs and the sorcerers and the fornicators and the murderers and idolaters and everyone who loves and practices falsehood. It is I, Jesus, who sent my angel to you with this testimony for the churches. I am the root and the descendant of David, the bright morning star. The spirit and the bride say, come, and let everyone who hears say, come, and let everyone who is thirsty come.

Invitation to a Higher Purpose

Let anyone who wishes take the water of life as a gift. I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this book. If anyone adds to them, God will add that person the plagues described in this book. If anyone takes away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God will take away that person's share in the tree of life and in the holy city which are described in this book, the one who testifies to these things says, surely I am coming soon. Amen. Come, Lord Jesus. The grace of the Lord Jesus be with all the saints. Amen. That is the end of the Bible. Bible. I have just read the last page of revelations 22 21.

The Promise of Return

Okay. Jesus is coming soon. He's coming to save us. But what's wrong? Why he's not coming right this second. He's not. No one knows the hour, by the way, my false prophet father keeps saying he knows the hour, he knows when exactly. And the only thing Jesus ever says is, it will come. He will come when you least expect. It could be anytime. And why I say this, too, is because I've heard from so many people that they say there's no reward for being a good person.

Rewards of Being Good

And let me tell you right now, it may feel like that while you're alive, while you're a human being having a human experience, society may punish you for being a good person. Yeah, they might. Sure. There's, you're not getting the same rewards as someone who's doing the opposite. Of course. Sure. In that respect, it's true. But in reality, there is a reward for being a good person. Because the reward is that you don't have to keep track of lies. The reward is you can sleep at night. The reward is you're not secretly anxious if anyone's going to find you out.

Spiritual Fulfillment

The reward is that you get closer to God. The reward is that you don't have to struggle with the same sin that other people are struggling with just because they made their fortunes on it. Things like that. And when I tell you there is hope, if you hear anyone preaching the word of God with fear in their tone, I beg you to not listen. They want you to be afraid. Because when you're afraid, you make mistakes, you act emotionally, you do things that are out of character, out of pocket, and will get you into trouble. Trouble.

God's Protection

Now, God will never let any of us fall. I don't care if you don't believe in him. I don't care if you're an atheist. I don't even care if you believe in some other God. None of that is. Doesn't matter. Because without God, we wouldn't even have any of that to even have made up or believe in, right? Because we humans have made our own society, we have made our beliefs, and we have made different religions and we swear by them, right? But at the end of the day, it is only God there, and he will make sure to carry us through to the end.

Belief and Hope

And I believe that. And I don't care if people think I'm crazy. I don't care if people think I'm stupid or ignorant or naive for believing that everything will be okay in the end. But I would very much rather give you all hope than say that we're all damned because none of you are past being saved and being saved. I know. I know the verbiage carries some sort of sting in certain places with certain people, but I don't know how, I don't have any other language to say this in being saved is not, you're special than everyone else.

The True Meaning of Salvation

Being saved is not better than anyone else. Being saved means that you have now decided to try to embody what Christ has taught us to love everybody, that you don't have to become mean just because somebody else is mean to you. In fact, I've had a lot of people on the Internet death threat me and say you're horrible and you're stupid and you're awful and you're a bigot and you're blah. You're all this, all these things. And every single time, all I've said is, I love you.

Love Over Hate

I love you, and I love you guys, because what a wonderful thing it is to be alive right now. And, you know, I want to be alive. I want to help heal people. People. And I want to be friends. That's why people don't understand me right now. I have to fight so hard to defend my position because people are saying, why are you following people who are voting for Kamala? Why are you following, like, gay people? Why are you following, like, you know, like, trans people? Why are you following maga people? Why are you following all these people?

Unity in Diversity

And I'm saying, because none of their superficial labels. I don't, I don't care. I don't care what you label yourself as. I don't care where you align. I don't give a freaking shit who you vote for. I only care about you as a person. Are you a nice person? What do you like to do? What are your hobbies? How do you react to certain situations, man? Like, are you gonna be a good friend to me if we talk? Are you gonna be nice? Are you gonna be mean? Like, that's all I care about, and that's all I feel.

Beyond Labels

Anyone should care about the labels and all the other stuff you put on yourself. That doesn't mean anything. That doesn't mean anything. It's like clothes. You put on clothes, who cares? You are not your clothes. You are not your labels. Who are you as a person when you see a puppy freaking dying in the street? What are you gonna do? What's your character? That's what I care about. Are you the person to help a friend? Are you someone who would give your last penny to save someone else? Or are you someone who goes, that sucks to suck.

Character Matters

It's too bad for you. That's what I care about. That's what I urge you all to be like. Good people, good characters. Whatever else about you matters not. Are you just a good person? Person? Are you helpful? Are you abuse? Do you give a shit about other people? These are the characters and qualities that are the most important. At the end of the day, are you good or not? Because if you are not good, that means you're going around hating on people. That means you're going around looking for a stranger to put down because you feel bad about yourself.

Understanding Human Behavior

That's. At the end of the day, that's all it ever is. Let me answer that question for you. If you ever go, why are people so mean sometimes? Why are people say these things sometimes? It's because they are broken. They feel bad and they can't handle it. So they put it on you and they say, well, you're bad, and they want you to alchemize that pain. They want you to process it, because they cannot. And I have had so many people in my. In the past year who have tried to put that on me, to make fun of me and say things, to try to put me down.

Confidence and Understanding

And I am so confident in that. I know that's not true. I study psychology, you guys. This is. This is why this is so important. This is not just a Christ space, this is a psychology space, too. That's important. Knowing people's psychology and how they think and why they think, you actually become very sad for them. Like, when I discovered what was going on with my mom, you know, like, I was. I was researching narcissistic personality disorder, BPD.

Psychological Insights

And you know what those are? Abandonment wounds. Narcissistic personality disorder is the full blown no point of no return. Once you have a positive narcissistic personality disorder diagnosis, you're. You're cooked, you're done. That means your brain is so fried and broken that you're just gonna be a little demon to everybody. You can't process your own feelings, and then you just. You're terrible. You're a menace to society. But BPD is more interesting because that's the level before full blown narcissism.

Understanding BPD

BPD is the people whose empathy is pretty much splayed open where they are so empathetic to the point that it hurts, that they take everything as a slight, and then to protect themselves whenever they perceive danger or they perceive loss or abandonment, then they go ahead and cut that person out of their life. So if their favorite person has a weird tone, right? Or they're arguing with the person and then say that person blocks them or whatever. They spiral immediately. They spiral immediately and cut that person out, and they're. They just go radio silent.

Navigating Relationships

So it's really hard to navigate relationships with these people. Bpds have more of a hope of being healed as long as they're away from their abusers. But like I said, narcissist people. They just. That's it. There's no hope. So for my mother, there's no hope for her. I tried really hard to have a relationship with her, but she cannot see past her own pain. She refuses to see me as a person, refuses to see me as somebody who has, you know, thoughts and feelings and can grow up and have my own life.

Reflection and Gratitude

So, anyways, I thank you guys again for being here and listening to my sermon and listening to me rant. I hope you have gotten something positive out of this space. I will be holding this kind of space every Sunday. I'm also going to do high house more often as well. But like I said, I wanted to encourage you that no matter where you are in life, I urge you to look and see what lesson is trying to be taught to you, that you do not have to become any negatives that happen in your life.

Emotional Resilience

And if somebody is speaking poorly towards you don't have to take it. You really don't, you know, don't. Don't take that. Don't internalize that pain and say, oh, well, they said I'm horrible, so I must be anyone who doesn't really know you and is saying mean things, that's just practice having that translation filter on. So if somebody says, you're a piece of shit, what they're really saying is, I feel like a piece of shit. And they don't know how to say, hell, help me, you know, help me.

Facing Negativity

I feel bad. I don't know. I don't know what to do with this. So instead they get angry. That's just not the way to go. So I love my enemies. I do, you know, put heaping coals on their head like Jesus says, in that figurative sense of, be nice to them. Give them water to drink when they're thirsty, give them food when they're hungry. And so many people disagree with this, they say, why would you do that? Go get revenge. Fuck them. That's not. That's not how we have a cohesive life.

Living with Love

That's not walking with a good heart. Bless everyone, and I bless you all. So we're going to finish this space with an our father. You can either join and say it or just listen. Whatever. But whatever you're comfortable with. So our Father, who are in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespassed against us.

Closing Prayer

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen. I wish nothing but health and happiness to all of you here, and I hope to see you again next Sunday. Thank you so much. I love you all. Goodbye.